Well my son is still out in the unknown. We tried to get a mental hygiene hearing for an involuntary committment the day before Mothers Day for him. Unfortunately they cannot find him either. I'm setting here thinking we taught our kids survival skills and by dang he is using them.
We joined a NarAnon Group. It's a group for parents and loved ones who have a loved one addicted to heroin and drugs. We just went to our 6th group meeting last Sunday and was finally able to cross Step One. Now this is a biggy step. Although we know what it is and call it what it is- heroin addiction. After 11 years of our sons addiction we can finally say,
We are powerless over our sons addiction. Our lives have become unmanageable
We can now accept that we didn't cause this; we can't control this; and we cannot cure this.
We must be slow learners or something.
I am still active in my community. We have a petition out for a treatment center right here. The county purchased the building for that purpose then of course the fight started between the two councils. Here we set many months later and people are still overdosing and dying here.
Now I for one am not a public speaker. I had my speech all prepared for them. They give you five minutes. Five minutes?
Hello we have a 31 y/o son who has been battling a heroin and opiate addiction for the last eleven years. I come here to tell you about it and you give me five minutes to tell you about the last eleven years? I then read them our petition for the treatment center. That's about all the time they allotted me.
Now in a couple of weeks I have got to repeat this at the County Council meeting.
I am finally able to start laughing again and making jokes. It's been awhile since I've been able to do that.
We haven't had a vacation for many years. We need to get away... and soon!!! If nothing else just to visit somewhere new away from this town, away from the realities we face here and see new things. The reality is that I blew an entire savings on my sons addiction to heroin.
So, I guess our vacation this year will be sponsored by Calgon...
Do they sell this stuff in Campfire and Smores scented flavored?